I wiLL NeVeR sAy GooD bYe.................(StiLL hOppInG ThE mIrAcLe)........

Errrrrmmmm......aq xtau nk mulekan mcm mne......okay,mcm ni...smlm aq ade program....so,nk @ x aq mmg kena jmpe ngan dia....n pagi2 tu dia call ngan nada mengada2 dia tu dia suh aq amik dia....means dia nk naik 1 kete ngan aq.....aq mmg xkisah pun....tp xtau ar......lpas dh abis program tengahari tu my friends cik T ajak kuar...n dia nk tgk movie Ice Age 4......so,aq y mcm blur2 juz accept je......smpai le dh kat wayang tu......aq rse mcm ade smthng je y x best.....but,aq juz ignore je......ble masuk wayang tu.....aq rse sesuatu.....i dont know what....but what i can say is.....that is my FIRSTIME going to cinema with a MAN okay!!n the man is one of the person i admire.....so,what u'alls think???Ish, Cik.....jgn nk perasan ler!!!!dia xde pape pun le......tp why i can feel from him to0??jgn nk BERANGAN ok!!!!what ever le!!!after tgk wayang tu....br le aq teringt bnde y aq rse x sedap hati tu!!!! I already promise with myself that i wont step again to cinema after my mother pass away.......juz with my Hubby only I will do it back!!!!!!!!!!Ya ALLAH,ape aq dh wat?????aq dh mungkir janji ngan diri aq sdri.....and it's all becoz of him!!!Mak....sye minta maaf.........sye x sengaja...........really hope that i will never do it anymore.....but Why I cannot remember it before accept it??before this if any my frenz ask me....I will alwayz remember it..........ermmmmmm......td pun aq dpt tau 1 bnde.......btol ke ape y En.N ckp???dia ckp y En.F ade msg ngan someone n bertnye dimana En.F berada.....ble En.F reply ade di JayBee.....si dia tu trus tnye nk jmpe or  x???n En.N sempat terbace msg tu n siap perli2 En.F.....but En.F x menafikannye....but he only tell like this...."u juz keep quiet....n it's is secret".........so,what u all think........ble En.N tnye xnk cite ke bile bunga2 cinta bermula....En.F say no......n it's secret........Ya ALLAH......btol ke laluan n haluan y aq ambil ini...........En.F.....if there is nthing between us.....why u alwayz like to give me a hope???i am really tired with all this thing........please lah!!!!aq btol2 dh penat nk syg org......sbb setiap kali aq syg org......aq pasti akn kecewa......perlu ke aq kembali membekukan hati ku tuk selamanye???Ya ALLAH...bantulah aq....tunjukkan bahawa ini bkn pilihan y salah Ya ALLAH........aq x terdaya lg dh...............mak....bapak.....really need u all pnye strength.............errmm,,,,mybe the best way is focus tuk my sis............it's more better....n after that i want to continue my study.....that is mybe the good thing for me right now......errrmm.......En.F I pray for your good time with her.......I am really tired to fight with anyone anymore........I just accept it if it's the best thing for you..........................anyway,thankz a lot En.F.....I will never say good bye.....becoz..............jauh di sudut hati yang paling dalam......aq masih berharap one day kau akn dtg pd aq En.F........but maybe it's only my small hope........thankz sbb byk ajar aq erti hidup...........kau adlh penawar ketika aq berduka dan lemah.....smoga ukhwah ini masih tersimpul hingga akhirnye.............aq minta maaf andai kau rse perasaan aq ni hnye 1 beban pd kau.....n aq x mahu kau simpati pd aq.....n sbb tu aq rse.....biarlah perasaan aq pd kau terus menjadi RAHSIA.....lg pun Cik.A still mengharap pd kau.....aq hnye mendoakan y terbaik tuk kau.......kalau kau bahagia + hepi.....aq hnye mampu tumpang kegembiraan mu itu.............cume 1 y aq hrap........jgn pernah bersimpati dgn nasib aq......cukuplah sekadar kau tahu y aq sgt menyayangi mu............aq x dpt membayangkan idup tnpe diri mu.....tp aq sedar n aq pasti.....mulai sekarang aq perlu belajar bagaiman hidup tnpe dirimu disisi ku..............................not to forget u.....but need to free you from my shadow...........aq akn belajar walau ia perit n pedih.....Ya ALLAH hnye KAU tau ape y tersirat dihati aq ini....................mak....bapak....I will do the best for my own good............... (^_^) try to keep smilling to make my life more happier than before............aja....aja fighting.......chaiyok.....chaiyok........yes!!!you can do it.................